Behold the art geek!
Look at his hat… his glasses… the poster on the wall of my room…
Pretty artsy, huh?
That’s me again – some twenty, twenty-five years ago.
When I listened to a lot of Synthpop and Industrial.
When I was heavily into Philip K.Dick and William S.Burroughs.
When I used to take art much more serious.
When art and music and poetry and all that used to be something like the meat of my soul.
So vital in my emotional economy.
And so painful at times…
Emotionally, I’m a little more detached nowadays.
Maybe that’s the advantage of the… uh… mature age.
Though I don’t feel much wiser now that I’m pushing fifty…
It’s only that you don’t have to try to be cool any longer all the time.
And isn’t that a blessing?
When this picture was taken I was trying to become a professional artist.
Well – it didn’t come about.
For several reasons.
For instance, I am an art school reject.
Just like Adolf Hitler.
So I’ve remained an amateur.
An art lover in the purest sense of the word. A true privilege.
Well, sort of.
But whether amateur or professional – in any case, you have to maintain a certain attitude.
A sense of transcendency.
It’s a matter of faith.
It’s the opposite of materialism.
You have to keep up a certain reflectiveness towards the human condition.
A certain awareness of your own mortality.
Then again – what’s it worth, my faith in art’s transcendency, when our sun is about to turn nova* in only half a million years?
Or – are you thinking in terms of… posterity?
What’s it to you?
If art is your way of making a living it can be a pain in the ass sometimes.
If not – well, then it’s not much of a challenge, is it?
But it’s bound to be quality time.
In either case.
Here’s a heartfelt evaluation by member Merrill Kazanjian:
“All the other “life” stuff got in the way and I didn’t have time until late in the day to work… Which of course is the problem with being an artist. Due to needs (paying the rent, food etc.) art becomes a second responsibility… which sucks when you’re motivated to do art!”
When you’re motivated to do art.
And here’s what Albert Einstein had to say about the nature of art.
“The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and science.”
So… take good care of your sense of wonder!
*A nova is a cataclysmic nuclear explosion of a white dwarf star.